I feel like this is Deja Vu. I can't sleep. I can't rest. I can't shut myself down right now. The only things my body wants to consume are packed with sugar. I'm tense. I'm anxious. There are bags under my eyes. This is an exact repeat from last year. This is deja vu.
Why? Is this what "this" is going to feel like every year? Is death going to haunt me every single April at this time? I suppose it is. I supposed it will. That's what an anniversary is, right? You have to take the bad with the good. I am tough. I will survive. It is all coming back though. I feel like I am reliving this weekend all over again. The Sunday that I never left my husband's side. The Sunday when I saw him draw his last breath. That fateful Sunday that is burned in my memory and haunts me at night.
It is really unbelievable. How could a year have possibly passed? How is it that the world has not stopped turning? How is it that time continues to tick on?
Because that is what happens. That is the cycle of life.
Meet the Author (me)
Driven by a need to help others. I have known from a young age that this is what I wanted to do. This is my very real, somewhat sarcastic, look into my newfound widowhood. I hope this site will help you as much as it helps me.