In looking back over my posts from the last several months sometimes I find a negative connotation underlying them. Maybe some depressive tendencies. That is not the goal of this blog. The goal is to help you find some light in the darkness. I find it is easier to write when I am down and the Need to write is stronger when I am battling the grief. The realism is that the darkness does overwhelm most days, but there is also happiness. Happiness provided in the memories, thoughts and actions. Happiness in carrying on and moving forward. You must find whatever helps you get through each day.
I find mine through writing, through my children, through sunshine and music. I'm one of those people that after work, I climb in my car and immediately crank the radio as loud as I can get it. I buzz through the channels until I find a song that I know at least 50% of the words (on a good day). I roll the windows down and sing at the top my lungs until I arrived to pick up the boys.
"Hello. It's me. ... Hello from the other side. I think I've called a thousand times."
Today it was "Come on Eileen," a little 80's throwback and then the Doobie brothers.
Anything to help me holler and ease the stress and worries. Anything to help you release the suffocating stressors. Find your thing. Grab on and feel better. Look for the future. Look for blue skies and bright sunshiny days!
Meet the Author (me)
Driven by a need to help others. I have known from a young age that this is what I wanted to do. This is my very real, somewhat sarcastic, look into my newfound widowhood. I hope this site will help you as much as it helps me.