It's been 365 days since you took your last breath with me. I sit here at the kitchen counter thinking of what I want to say, frantically searching for the appropriate words. Writing and deleting, striving to do you justice. Describing the last year is damn near impossible to do in a few words, paragraphs or even pages.
I hope that you're proud of us. It's the only thing I yearn for and hope to achieve. Lucas, Reed and I have all grown immensely in so many ways without you over the last year.
Lucas has matured in time and also by circumstance and his wealth of knowledge astounds me. Reed continues to hit milestones left and right and exert his strong willed personality.
I know you've seen the tears, the anger, sadness and joy that the three of us have shared each day together. I know you've heard us at night tell you we love you. I know you've heard us singing in the car to you. I know you listen when I talk to you. I know you've heard all three of us say that we want you here. That we don't know how to go on without you. Know that we are going forward. We are learning every day how to keep going.
We will continue to talk to you and tell you good night. We will continue to blow you kisses and pray that you will be waiting for us to rejoin you someday.
We love you so much. More than I'll ever be able to adequacy express.
Rachel, Lucas & Reed
Meet the Author (me)
Driven by a need to help others. I have known from a young age that this is what I wanted to do. This is my very real, somewhat sarcastic, look into my newfound widowhood. I hope this site will help you as much as it helps me.