“Is Daddy in the moon?” (Deep breath) What Lucas? “Is daddy in the moon?” I don't think he's in the moon but I'm not really sure. “He's in the sky though, in heaven, right?” Yes, Lucas he's in heaven.
I'm in a funk. I suppose I have every right to be. Surely you can relate on some level. We all go through periods of time that are better than others, while some are more difficult than others. There isn't a specific reason for this mood. I love this time of the year. We have 75 pumpkins around our house. Bats hanging outside, ghosts in our trees and candy corn lights strung through the bushes. Halloween is dripping both inside and out. All is good. No complaints. No one really getting on my nerves. No one is pushing my buttons. No new demands at work.
Somehow, I'm still in a funk.
Look at the positive. Deep breath. Find the positive, I chant to myself. Pulling yourself up is hard. It's so much easier to be down. Changing your way of thinking takes both energy and effort. I believe I'm just tired, so very tired. I refuse to be down. I will not raise my voice at my kids. I will not be grumpy. I will choose to change my attitude. I will choose to put my best foot forward. I will laugh and smile and I will tell this funk to go the hell away. Tomorrow is a new day.
I think it's time for a dance party. Song of the day: new Pitbull song. I turn it up as loud as it will go. Four small hands shoot to the air and little underwear clad bodies start shaking and stomping their feet. "Give me the green light because I'm ready to go... You've only got one life."
Howling belly laughs fill the living room. Mom's eyes are closed, as she jumps up and down, grabs two small hands and swings around and around, while chanting the words. Music and laughter vibrate from our walls. This is the life. This is how you move forward. This is finding the positive.
Goodbye funk... See you next time.
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